Jill

[manoah]

So it's been almost a week since I heard the news and I'm still processing. I've known Jill since I was 15 years old and I'm 56. She was only 64, so just 8 years older than me. *sigh*

I haven't heard any other news, but I found a copy of her will in my files and see that I'm the executor if her sister is incapable. Her sister is flying (or has flown) in from Germany and she will be fine. The whole thing is just surreal.

I met Jill when I was a sophomore in high school and she was my shorthand teacher. We've been friends ever since. I know that I'm getting to "that" age and these things will be happening, but the first one is always the hardest...I guess.

I keep going over, in my mind, all the things we did together, all the fun times we had. All the times we went out and got trashed and then stayed up half the night yakking, falling asleep on her couch (her house was bigger). It's so hard to think that she is gone.

Thank you all for your kind words. I really appreciate my online friends as much as I cherish my real life friends (and sometimes those crossover!).

Bless you all.

Comments

[rahirah]

I'm glad you have a lot of good memories of her.

[manoah]

I do. I wish she wasn't gone, but....I have my memories.

[curiouswombat.livejournal.com]

I really do understand - first 'D from Skye', i.e. dougalsservant, and then a couple of months ago my equally long term friend Anne was killed in a climbing accident. And it is so hard to think of them not being there, it really doesn't feel real.

[manoah.livejournal.com]

It doesn't. I don't know that it ever gets easier.

[slaymesoftly.livejournal.com]

My sympathy, manoah. Losing close friends is always hard and it never really gets easier. I guess at some point if you live long enough, you come to expect it, but I'm not there yet and I'm much older than you are.

[manoah.livejournal.com]

It was quite a shock, and yet not. She'd turned into a bit of a recluse. Sad.

[kazzy-cee.livejournal.com]

I felt the same when a good friend died in February. It reminds you that you're mortal doesn't it - and there's a feeling of such a waste of life, that they had so much more to do...

*hugs*

[manoah.livejournal.com]

It does make me want to connect more with my friends, especially those I don't see regularly anymore. *sigh*

[double_dutchess]

I hope going over all these cherished memories will help you cope with the loss.

[manoah.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I hope I was a light in her life.

[1-rhiannon-1.livejournal.com]

I missed that post but many condolences on the loss of your friend (((many hugs)))

[manoah.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I appreciate that.

[snogged.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[manoah.livejournal.com]

Thank you.